Me and this guy, who i shall call "C" on here, became friends two years ago on feb. 4...we weren't friends then but i called him the day my dad killed himself because i was so upset and he was the only person i knew of that knew what it was like to lose a parent...He kept me from fallowing my dad that night and also for about 4 months fallowing my dads death. we became best friends then we started going out the following november then i broke up with him the next month because i was having a lot of personal issues. last march we started going out again. i was finally truely happy with life since my dad's death. then in july he came back from camp and i found out he got a second girlfriend while he was there so i had to break up with him. our friendship died then...honestly it doesn't matter that we broke up. that's what happens when youre a teenager. but i couldn't stand that i no longer had my best friend. i got more and more depressed. from that but mostly other stuff adding on to that. he hates me now and i have no idea why. its not like i cheated on him...
ive needed someone that i really know outside of a computer to talk to so bad right now...every time i try to talk to someone they cant right then then never text back or they just don't answer period. i tried talking to him out of pure desperation on sunday. i wouldn't tell him who it was he was talking to but i know he knew it was me and he acted like he cared a little then the next day he got all irritated at me and said he was going to block my number...why would he do that? on sunday i practicably told him i had been thinking about killing myself...i told him i needed someone to talk to and i was desperate and that my brother was the only thing stopping me...and thats not going to be enough for me eventually....i have no one left that truly loves and cares about me except for my brother and sister and they both live far away. my brother about 4 hours and my sister about 1 and a half...
Why doesn't he care anymore...what happened to my best friend that was always there for me and promised he would be here for me always?
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