I'm so sick of people. Especially one person in particular. My friend, D. Well most likely not friend now. He's been such a jerk for the past few months. I'm so sick of it. I can never do anything right in his eyes. He knows I have problems controlling my emotions and that they sometime just explode out of me, and yet he still freaks out on me when I accidentally explode at him. It was his own fault that it came out at him. I made it obvious that I wasn't in a good mood before he was bugging me. I told another friend RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM and saw that he was listening that I had a sucky morning. He still chose to bother me though. It probably wouldn't have been so bad if he hadn't made me furious the day before. We were in anatomy watching some video about eating disorders and he chose to tell me that if I ever became anorexic he would never talk to me again. Idiot. He should open his freaking eyes. If he actually paid attention it wouldn't be too difficult to notice that I already have anorexia-like tendencies. I asked him why and he responded because its basically killing yourself. -.- I asked him if he felt the same way about cutting. He said yes and that people that cut are stupid psycho people that just want attention. -.- He KNOWS that I cut in the past. Its never where anyone can actually see though so it is NOT for attention. AT ALL. It hurt so bad. Aren't real friends supposed to be there for you and not judge you no matter what??? I'm there for him and don't judge him for the things he does, he would dislike me so much if I did. But of course, the same rules don't apply for him. He made me so upset it actually guilted me into giving him the razors I had. He didn't care at all that I was trying to stop hurting myself though. I think it actually even made him more mad that I gave them to him to get rid of them and make sure I didn't use them anymore.

I choose not to be friends with him anymore.

I'm an idiot for staying friends this long. He's basically been mentally/emotionally abusing me all year. He's called me a shitty friend. Said he hated me. Got mad at me for things I can't control. etc. -.- He's doing it to get back at me for accidentally exploding at him. It wasn't nearly as bad as it could have been. It would have been way worse if he hadn't walked away angrily when I told him to leave me alone because I was in a horrible mood. He has even told me that he's being so horrible to me because of what I did. Ass-hole. He knows I hate myself for taking things out on him. He knows I have punished myself constantly since then. He still chooses to be a jerk to me. 

It's not fair.

We were supposedly best friends. What "friend" treats their "best friend" like that on purpose?!?!?!?! I dislike him with a passion right now. -.-

Last night I was in a really weird mood so it didn't bug me as much. Now it does though. I'm about to text him saying I'm done. I do not wish to be friends with someone like him. He doesn't act like a real friend anymore. At all. -.- 

I am done venting about him. Now I must go do my English homework.