Stupid teacher! you must not know me at all! im not the least bit happy today! the only reason i haven't swallowed 50 pills is because i promised C i would never kill myself! i don't even see why i bother with keeping promises to him anymore...its not like we're even the tiniest bit of friends anymore... ='( and he wouldn't care anyway...he'd probably even be happy if i were gone...
the bruise on my arm hurts freaking bad...is it normal to get red speckles on your skin where bruises are forming? i don't even think its because i was getting a bruise...my hand had the weird speckles on it too where i was hitting my arm with and it doesn't have a bruise... strange...
My mom is the stupidest person in the world. Every day with out a fail, even when im actually super happy and am smiling and all cheerful, she asks "whats wrong" or "whats the matter" or "are you mad at me", except for today...and today has been one of my most bleh days in a really long time...it makes me feel like she doesn't truly care about me at all...like the times she asks all that are just for show so i can't say she never asks me how i am..as if she cares about me until i really need her...
i feel like everyone is too busy for me lately...the only people i text anymore are the ones that i text first, which is kinda rare, and even then the conversation hardly goes anywhere...
im sick of putting my stupid act to everyone...most think im so happy and positive right now...they dont know me at all...and those are the people that im closest to....
i can't handle God right now...i feel horrible for saying that but its true...i was going to go to church last night, but i just couldn't handle it...i feel like God hates me so i can't face things that have to do with him (church, bibles, etc) like an immature little 10 year old that's mad at her friend...its so stupid...i don't even know why i can't face things...
my chemistry teacher is a freaking idiot! he "teaches" us stuff that we are never going to use in life. doesn't really teach us though. he sucks as a teacher. always gives us the answers. doesn't really care to a point if no one is paying the least bit attention to him... only cares if people start getting loud then he screams at us...
i want to curl up in a ball and go to sleep forever..i shall do that now.. minus the forever part. i have school tomorrow....
~complain session over~ goodnight blog readers
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