i tried to post this from my phone first then it went crazy and deleted all my typings so now i have to restart from my computer =/
im watching suite life on deck right now!!! i love this show, even though its for little kids =P i love the character thats on sometimes called adison. shes my favorite. her character is soooo funny and so pretty. changed the channel. now im watching princes protection program. im in a disney mood right now =P
i got some new knee high converse since the last time i was on!!!! im so happy. i loved my old ones. they were REAL converse, the zipper on them broke =(. these ones aren't real. theyre just airwalks but they're still pretty awesome. and they were cheap. only $20 =)))) the others were like $80ish or $90ish!! i like the new ones so much more though. i don't feel bad about coloring on them so i decorated them up awesomely. and they are sooo loose on my shins even though i had them as tight as they would go.~kind of messed up but that makes me really happy.
i have discovered that i reeeaaaalllly love masquerade masks. i wore one as my Halloween costume. kinda a boring costume but the mask was reallly cool. i want to decorate a bunch and hang them up on my walls.
Speaking of walls that gave me an awesome idea for decorating my room. it would be awesome to put a big floor to almost ceiling mirror on one of my walls.
i feel so bleh lately. i HATE this whole trying to eat "normal" thing. its driving me CRAZY! I feel so out of control lately... its weird a lot of people say stuff like "i wish i had never gotten myself into this" etc. but i love my issues... i get no control other than them...and i like being the boss of atleast ONE thing...
i feel so lazy lately...i haven't been feeling good so i have no energy to exercise...im about to though. a ton...or more like stretch...i dont do real exercises...i don't like muscle...i just stretch a ton...and jump around my room right before i go to sleep.
im sick of typing now. audios peoples reading this
Control is so important. Eating normal is a blessing as long as you have a good mind set.. I don't so i can't eat normal... you're amazing ok?! you an do this. take care sweetie!
ReplyDeleteI miss my old Converse! I got them in 1993, and in true grunge tradition, wore them until they fell apart. Literally--the bottoms fell off.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to let go of the control. I think we all love and hate this disorder to a certain extent, but if you can shake yourself free of it and eat normal, then go for it! You deserve to be happy with yourself.
xoxo